i wish i had the confidence to wear dresses and cute clothes that i see at stores and on other girls.i love what i look like in the clothes i try on but i'm afraid of what others might think or say.
i wonder what would happen if i just ate everything i wanted for one day.like ice cream and cookies and cake and cheese and peanut butter and pizza. everything that i have ever wanted or craved but wouldn't allowed myself to have.what would happen? how would i feel? react?
since i feel so paranoid that people are talking about me and judging me all the time, i feel the need to disappear and being small makes me think i can do just that. no one will notice me i am thin enough right?