Wednesday, June 27, 2012

wiaw # 15 {food and thoughts}

Happy Wednesday loves..I have the day off today and what better way to spent it but with my Momma! I haven't seen her is a while so I'm pretty happy.

A few updates before showing you my eats...

1. I had an awesome leg workout yesterday with Ben. I squatted 80lbs and leg pressed 140lbs which is good for me at the moment..I could probably add more on both though as I wasn't completely fatigued afterward. The other awesome part of the workout was the fact that the gym was PACKED and I actually didn't care! I was so freakin' proud of myself. Woot!

2.  I'm not sure if it's just Ed rearing his ugly head more these days or if I've really gained weight. Maybe I'm just noticing my body more? I don't know. But whatever it is, I hope it's temporary and that I start feeling better about my body. It seems as though my eyes are focusing on my arms and hips lately. They are in the spotlight and I hate it. It's driving me bonkers. I just want to be okay for once. Is that too much to ask? I think I've struggled with Ed so long that his views have become so engraved and I can't get rid of them. I see my arms growing and all I see is fat, when I should really be focusing on how muscular and strong they are becoming. What is wrong with me? Can't I see that Ed is just trying to sabotage my efforts and bring me down? Garg. 

3. Ben took me shopping this past weekend and bought me a pretty outfit. By the way, it was his idea, not mine. He was complaining that I never wear anything nice just always shorts and a huge t-shirt. He wanted me to get a dress or something so this is what he picked out (at Maurices)...

It took us forever to agree on something because I just couldn't figure out where I'd wear this but it's cute and maybe we'll go out for dinner or something who knows. I like the way it looks on so that's a plus!

Now on to what I ate...thanks to Jenn as always...

Recent Snack: Sally's Smart almonds! These are the bomb! 
Like seriously so good and I love that nothing else is added in terms of sugars or anything!

Recent Snack: I made a new thing...PB2 mixed with coconut butter (Kevala to be exact!) and enough water to make it thick (not watery), and then you add granola on top! I was in was like cookie dough but better haha!

Recent Lunch: black grapes with chicken stripes and mustard! Mmmm yums :)

Recent Lunch: P28 protein bagel with grapes and Ostrich/Beef jerkee strip! <--my favorite thing ever invented!!

Recent Breakfast: Chobany peach yogurt topped with Jessica's granola!

Recent Snack: Biena chickpeas...these things are awesome! I tried the sea salt kind but they have cinnamon maple and chili lime! I'll be trying those very soon.

No dinners? Haha, I guess I failed on snapping pictures, oh wells. Most consisted of squash and chicken sausage though!

And just some positive articles I found...

The Body Love Pledge: I loved reading helped me really think about my body and realize that I must love myself for me and stop trying to be someone else or want to look different. 

10 Pounds by Happy is the new Healthy...this basically made my day when I read it because I was in such a need of some body love. She is so amazing, I always love reading her posts!

The Sexiest Women is the World: a great article about what a true sexy women looks like. 

How to Overcome an Eating Disorder by Lindsay's List: this is such an inspiring and informative post. It helped me a lot, especially the tip about speaking your actions. Definitely a must read.  

LEARN to love yourself: another awesome article about loving yourself! I love reading these types of things as you can see.

Nothin' Wrong with You Baby: I loved reading this! Inspiration times 100! Another must read. 

Go Kaleo: this blog is AMAZING! Like her on facebook too for more inspiration. She's so real, it's refreshing. 

Have a good week <3


  1. woo! so proud of you beauty! You're food looks so yummy! Hope you feel happier about your body Ox

  2. I saw your arm pics - you're still skinny, you just have a little muscle definition. But if you're lifting that heavy, you'll hopefully see size increase (if you're fueling adequately) and that's not fat, it's muscle. Good luck!

  3. Wow, I never thought to mix coconut butter w/ PB2 but what a great combo! Those almonds sound amazing!

    Thanks for the links to those posts...I am in need of some positive words these days

    1. Yes it's really good! And the almonds were amazing! You're welcome<3

  4. I'm definitely going to check out those articles! They sound great :)
    You keep fighting and that ED voice will stop trying to savotage all your efforts- you are a strong girl that ED should not mess with ;D

    I've nominated you for the versatile blogger award and the lovely blog award! :)

    1. Very true, I will never give up! Thank you so much!! I love your blog<3

  5. Thanks for the link love!! Praying for you and positive body thoughts!

  6. Omg those almonds..they look amazing.

  7. I don't think I've ever tried roasted chickpeas -- I love soynuts.... do you know if they are similar??

    1. A bit I think although I haven't had soynuts in a while but I'd say so!