- i must always be the smallest/thinnest person in the room.
- i must always eat less than everyone else i am dinning with.
- my stomach must be flat on all days.
- i must be able to feel all my bones (ribs, hips, pelvis, collarbone, shines, etc)
- there must be no cellulite. ever.
- when i lay down on my back, my stomach must sink deep inward.
- i must feel only muscle, no fat.
- pants must be loose at the waist.
- i must always get more exercise than the people around me
i'm sure there are so many other ones that i am failing to think of but as they come up i will add them to the list. i am not writing this list so that i can obtain to these rules, i am writing it so that i can distinguish them and realize that they are LIES and that ed is hurting me. i am also writing them down so that when one of them comes up at any point, i can recognize it and disobey it.