She'll Be Free

long time no write. i haven't had the motivation lately. this seems to be the pattern for a lot of things. i can't seem to find the motivation to write, draw, do schoolwork, etc. i have, however found the motivation to continue doing the work of byron katie which i talked about in my last post. i signed up for the work online which has been very convenient. it's been really helpful, especially with ben and school related things. i read a quote the other day by byron katie that said "all sadness is a tantrum" and at first i didn't believe it, but after days of pondering about it i have come to see how it is true. sadness is something you do when things don't go your way or something happened that you didn't like. most of the time anyways. it's like getting sad over not being able to go some where that you really wanted to go. it's a tantrum. why? because you're upset over something that didn't happen the way you wanted it to. you are sad and upset at reality. it's kinda confusing at first to understand the work of byron katie, as some ideas are hard to grasp, but as you continue to do it and as long as you have a completely open mind and are able to be honest with yourself, it can be a very life changing experience.