It's been a long time since we were good friends. I can't really remember the last time I was nice to you. I wish I could say I'm getting better with this and treating you with care, but I wold be lying, I am doing poorly. But I am learning...slowly.
|Me hiking up to Mt. Madison (NH)|
I am learning to listen to your needs more than just what Ed wants.
I am learning to nourish you with the right amount of nutrients, instead of depleting everything you have.
I am learning to let you rest even when Ed demands me to make you move non-stop.
I know it hasn't been easy these past eight years, not knowing if I was going to feed you enough and then having to be pushed so hard every. single. day.
|Me on top of Mt. Adams (White Mountains)|
I have put you through a lot and you have held up so far, but I don't know how much longer you will, so I am determined more than ever to give you everything you need.
You deserve my loving care and that is what I intend to bring to you.
I want to thank you for putting up with my crap and everything Ed forced me to do to you.
I hope one day, we can be good friends again, just like the old days, but until then, I will make this promise to you: "I will treat you the best I know how with what knowledge I have at the moment. I will give you both physical nourishment and also mental nourishment, and I will push you hard, but let you rest as long as you need. I promise to treat you in the same way I would treat my very best friend."