Tuesday, August 2, 2011

I think sometimes the reason why I continue with this whole eating thing is because I believe it makes me different than others, like being extremely thin will set me apart from others and thus give me control and power. It's really apparent to me regarding the issue with my arms. I have been working out and lifting weights and thus noticing that my arms are getting stronger which also means they look bigger and feel bigger. This, obviously, scares me and makes me feel normal which I hate so much. I feel like I want my arms to be skinny like they used to be and then I won't be normal and people will be jealous of me or something....

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