She'll Be Free

i have been thinking a lot about recovery and what it really means to be recovered from ed. i discovered that it must mean something different for everyone because for myself, i can't define recovery. i have a hard time thinking that there is any such thing. i mean doesn't everyone have some kind of food or body issue? so saying that you've recovered and no have peace with food and your body is a lie right? i don't have much hope that i will ever be recovered or have any kind of freedom from this disease. i know this is pretty negative and i should i try to look at the positive side but i can't. all i see is me and ed, struggling forever. i mean, he sometimes is my only friend...