She'll Be Free

Today I woke up to massive amounts of snow...okay so maybe not massive, but enough to definitely not want to go outside, like at all. I let my mom take the dogs out which is not something I normally would be okay with, as I freak out if I don't do it myself, but today was different. I was freezing and just didn't feel like going anywhere and so I took a leap and challenged myself to listen to these feelings and stayed in. Ed didn't like this so much but that is okay. I don't care what he likes and dislikes anymore.

A little later in the morning I started my arms/abs workout and that made me feel like I actually got something done. I tried a new protein powder today...hemp protein. It was okay, kinda a little too grainy for me though.

It's hard for me to stay inside all day and try to find things to occupy myself but I am trying to constantly remind myself to stay calm and to relax, as this is something I rarely do. It;s also hard to continue to eat what I need when I know I didn't go for a walk like I normally do, but again, I have to tell Ed no and tell myself that I need food because of my workout (and just for staying alive obviously!) Easier said than done.

I got a call back from a lady at Mass General Hospital for a study I am going to participate in and made an appointment for next week. It's a study of how being at a low weight effects bone density and estrogen levels. Not exactly sure how it works but I will find out next week when I go and oh yeah, did I mention I get paid to do it? So yeah, sign me up! haha.

Anyways, off to find more to do...blah

I hate snow!